The Heart of the Naked Tree

There was a day or two in the beginning of last week when I was feeling quite defeated--something I don't often allow myself to sink into.  I was afraid I was going to have to close my business and call it an experience that failed.  I was in the hole in a bad way. Nothing was on the schedule book. The phone got shut off. (A few days later I was able to get it turned back on by stroke of luck.) I was sinking further and further into despair.

But then, my Ausband stubborness kicked into high gear. I actually yelled at the top of my lungs in the car, "NO! This is NOT an option! This is not going to happen, damn it!" In my mind's eye, I shook my fist at the Universe...moreso at my own fear, worry, and self-wallowing.

While all this was going on, I was making a ton of love jars as a donation to families who applied for Christmas help. During that process, I realized what I was writing and it finally sunk into my being. (Hey, write 25-30 notes each for 108 love jars and something is bound to seep in!) 

"You are a Perfect Portrait of Love"

"Love doesn't know I Can't"

"You are a Miracle in Motion"

"Know the Magic of You!"

"Worry is a muscle cramp of Abundant Positive Flow"

"Believe in the unimaginable possibilities for your life"

The words flowed from somewhere and on to each slip of paper.

Slightly beyond halfway finished, in a single moment--a nanosecond--I was slapped in the face by it all. Everything made sense to me. The message applies to me too. I'm not exempt. (Neither are any of you, by the way)

My stubborn resolve became firmly entrenched in my being...I could pull this out...I'm an Ausband, made of Love and I do not know defeat.

........And then there were two people on the schedule for that Friday and another on the schedule for the following Monday.

It's amazing what happens when I magnetize myself, business, etc!  It's a shift in frequency, that's all it is. So simple. I wonder why I forget that so much?

The two on that Friday were mobile therapy appointments. So while driving, guess what I see?! It's this tree alone in a barren field with only two branches coming off of the main trunk angled in separate directions. On the upper top of those two branches, were smaller branches arching in toward each other.

The tree made a perfect heart, with a solid trunk rooted in the earth.  Should that tree have had leaves, had it been another season, no one would have seen it's heart. What a reflection for me! 

A single tree, naked in winter's chilled grip, yet standing firm, strong, in its barest, truest essence, was providing inspiration to those travelling down their own road to destinations unknown.

This week, out of the blue, the phone was ringing, people were scheduling, I'm able to keep office open I think, and I am able to do what I was put here to do: Help people and their bodies heal themselves. 

Ironically (maybe not so ironic), in this process, I also healed a little more of myself.